Dear Me,
I honestly don’t know how to say this without you stubbornly fighting me, but this conversation has been on my mind for quite sometime now. I’ve realized that the more time I waste by putting it off, the more time I hold myself back – the more time I hold you back. So here it is. You ready?
I’m breaking up with you.
I mean we had a great run. At least, that’s what I used to think. The hard truth is I’ve met someone else. He’s different. Not romantically, but something altogether beautiful and spiritually grand. He says I don’t have to mask my pains anymore behind walls. I don’t have to act like my past didn’t tear me to pieces. I don’t have to hold those unnecessary grudges you encourage me to hold against those who persecuted and abandoned me, that I can be free from my own prison of unforgiveness. He says that this world and all it’s pleasures has nothing of substance to offer, but He gifts eternal life. I can let go and be healed completely in Him. Solely by Him.
Where as you are stubborn, He says I am safe to let go and submit. Where as you are prideful, He says if I humble myself before Him He will exalt me. Where as you are selfish, He is selfless. Where as you are often times foolish, He is wise and a teacher of wisdom to those who will listen. Where as your version of love is conditional, He is love and His love is never-ending. Where as you have been at the source of all my wrongs, He has been the source of all my rights.
By now you probably want to know His name, don’t you? Well, His name is Jesus. He says He is God and I believe Him. The son of God. Can you believe He knew me before I was even formed in my mother’s womb? Or that He knows the exact number of hairs on my head? He lived His life to preach and fulfill the true Gospel, died for my sins on the cross, rose again on the third day, and went to prepare a place me. For those of us who believe in Him and repent of our transgressions. For those of us who deny ourselves, pick up our crosses, and follow Him. So I know you may not like that we have to go our separate ways today, but one day you will understand. That He must increase and I, decrease.
Listen, I let you have your way in my life for awhile now and I only ended up broken because of you, so today I am giving Him full reign instead. I trust Him to lead, love, and keep us better than I can trust myself to do the same. ♡
xoxo, me
The Redeemed Wife 